Salutations,
How do you define the time you spend alone? Lonely or alone? It is one thing to have, I suppose, a family or I highly public lifestyle or very strong interests that occupy your down time whereas you enjoy the few moments your are alone...it is completely another when you are alone all the time. I am a bit introverted and shy and spend a considerable amount of time on my own...I always have. But I enjoy it. Yesterday I got up and went for coffee and sat by the Ocean soaking in the beauty of the West coast. Then I wen to the gym and read on the life cycle for an hour. After a nice shower I went for groceries. Then I decided to go to the 135meter pool for the afternoon where I swam and relaxed for three hours. Then home were I prepped a halibut fillet for a nice dinner. I watched a little Olympics, randomly checked my E mail and then rented a very good DVD on the assassination of Jesse James. It was a beautiful day. Interestingly, as I moved around through the entire day I had no direct contact with anyone, no phone calls and no E mails...that is not unusual. Of course through a day such as that I may tell myself that I should be going out on the town...or doing something highly interactive....that I am missing out on something...but why? It is just the conditioning that sends these kind of messages...that I have to be with someone, that I have to be accomplishing something
measurable...that everything has to be towards an end. The irony is that my life is what it is...and besides, as long as I have my health I am in the game...the survival games...I suppose as long as I am around I am a little better off than people who have it all, so it seems, but not for long. I do want to be more engaged... This may be it as far as the level of interaction and/or
accomplishment...so I had better make the best of it...which is what I intend!! Along the way though I will keep
trying to evolve and grow....perhaps it is all about new experiences and not on anything
that's measurable??. .Over the last 6months and next 6months I feel myself moving from recognition to action...albeit slowly :) I do want to better
engage myself with my community. I do find it easier in smaller cities/
communities.
Putting my words to actions yesterday I fought off the feelings that I need to share every moment with someone physically...so here it is electronically :)...it is all about putting one foot ahead of the other some days...you have to just keep at it...believe me, I am a grateful man. Everyday I read about or see someone worse off...I take note....I have a healthy body that can take me anywhere in the world...
when I figure out where I go from here?? :) I believe, in my heart, that a little further down this road I will be truly ready to share my life with someone. I will leave you a couple of photos from yesterday. This spiritual moment has been brought to you by scoop! :)
Putting my words to actions yesterday I fought off the feelings that I need to share every moment with someone physically...so here it is electronically :)...it is all about putting one foot ahead of the other some days...you have to just keep at it...believe me, I am a grateful man. Everyday I read about or see someone worse off...I take note....I have a healthy body that can take me anywhere in the world...when I figure out where I go from here?? :) I believe, in my heart, that a little further down this road I will be truly ready to share my life with someone. I will leave you a couple of photos from yesterday. This spiritual moment has been brought to you by scoop! :)
